Today has been a day of remembrance for me. A year ago today (almost at the exact time I am writing this) I was screaming for Dan to take me to the hospital while he sat on the couch and cut his toenails!!! And of course, he took my picture (during a contraction even), made us pray, and then proceeded to stop and fill the empty gas tank! I am sure the two guys in the car next to us was wondering what was going on as this woman was screaming in the car next to them. The hourdrive to the hospital was filled with blaring Anberlin on my iPod, jokes about cows, and contractions filled with screams.
I won't go into details for the audience, but I remember everything about that night. Even after laboring all day (from 5 am), I have quite the clear memories. But Abi came at 1 am (one hour into her due date). Right on time... that's my girl. What cherished moments were to come. This whole year has been filled with wonder for us! Abi is SO her own personality, she is smart and so beautiful. I am grateful for her. She has already taught me so much and is my good friend.
When I was watching Abi today I felt humbled by the gift that the Lord has given us to be parents. I take it for granted so many times. At times I tend to see parenting as such a chore. I wouldn't be surprised if the Lord felt that way about me too... "No Clarissa, you need to pray EVERY night. How many times do I need to remind you?" But I realized today that the times when I do see her as a chore is when I am paying too much attention to the demands of the world... places to go, shopping to do, people to see (and impress). When I take it easy and spend my day "being" mom, not just doing mom, then I am happy and feel so fulfilled. That doesn't mean that I don't like to go shopping, or participate in outside activities... I REALLY do, but it does mean that when I put the ping pong balls in the jar first, then all the rice will fit (that one's for you mom).
My mom summed it up perfectly in her card to Abigail... "the world has been a better place with you in it." So here's to you Abigail Claire --- I love you and am blessed by your being in our family. I can't wait to celebrate your birthday tomorrow! You are perfect for me... thank you for choosing me to be your mom.